Just some thoughts

Here's some early morning, alone-time thoughts. Warning, you might not agree with this... but please read it all before you judge.

As Kurt Cobain once wrote, "you read, you die."

I have been watching Gilmore girls for days. I haven't gotten cable yet (trying to save money since I am just moving in) and it's so peaceful and doesn't remind me of real life other than my hopes for my daughter and I. I want another baby one day but I want another son. My daughter is my firstborn and she's beautiful and my miracle <3 I know that in some ways, she will always have this piece of my heart that is just a little bit bigger and if I have the relationship with her that Lorelie and Rory have, I would be a very happy mother. <3 My son, Jax, In some ways, I picture his future as a different one. He's big. Like football player, NFL future big. The doctors told me on his second birthday that he would be between 6'2 and 6'3. I was so amazed. I am only five 2. And his father isn't over six foot. He's also strong and smart. He uses his strength and agility to his advantage. He can hop my four and a half foot gate and he's not even three!! I imagine him playing football soon and being in high school, waiting for scholarships, getting one to send him to a good school and he can get a degree. then my dream splits. He can either go play for the NFL, (Personally I dream of him on the REDSKINS, completely my favorite team) and his life would be amazing. We're also a "generational military" family so my other dream involves him joining the Military as an officer and serving his country. I often dream of him in the Marine Corps. My third dream is simpler. I dream of him being a doctor. I mean, come on. What mom wouldn't be proud to have a son that's a doctor? <3 My daughter, I dream of her being an artist. But I am realistic and realize I'm passing my dreams as hers. I dream of her painting in Italy, sketching in Paris, playing small gigs in Amsterdam and New York City. <3

Anyways, I better get going. I just wanted to share some of my world.