For now and Forever

my love for you will never end

it runs much deeper than a friend

i long to feel your warm embrace...

and to see a smile upon your face

chorus:

so for now and forever i vow to be true

there's no one i could love like you

so for now and forever and a little bit more

this is the love i've been longing for

v2 a love so strong a love so true

a love i could only have for you

this hear that fought not to be broken

is now to you laid wide open

chorus

my heart was a door with no lock and no key

but like a true warrior you've come to save me

you unlocked the door that hid my love

you are a gift from God above

chorus

so for now and forever, til death do us part

for now and forever you'll always have my heart

quotes i love

Be safe, sleep with a Soldier, just not mine ♥

If you think Soldiers are tough, you should see their girls ♥

Dear deployment, you are a cockblocker. I need sex.

I really hate this crap called deployment.

His calls keep me ♥Alive♥

Wake me up when this deployment ends

BACK OFF! I'm taken by a real man. Proud Army Sweetheart ♥

Screw the shining armor. My hero wears combat boots ♥

Half my Heart is in Afghanistan ♥♥♥♥

In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save me ♥

You are nothing short of my everything ♥

Because I miss you, hearing your voice is the closest thing to touching you ♥
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I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night but deep in my heart I truly know, you're the man that I want and I can't let you go ♥

I wish you were here, but you're not here, you're there and there doesn't know how lucky it is.

Wherever you go I'll be waiting, whenever you call, I'll be there. Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright, you're in my heart here tonight. ♥

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between, you occupy my mind... so practically every single moment of the day you are in my thoughts.

The simple lack of you is more to me than the presence of others ♥

Give me more lovin than I've ever had, make it all better when I'm feelin' sad. Tell me I'm special even when I know I'm not, make me feel good when I hurt so bad, barely gettin mad, I'm so glad i found you. I love being around you... Give me more lovin' from the very start, piece me back together when I fall apart. Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends. Make me feel good when I hurt so bad, best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you. I love being around you. You make it easy, it's easy as one, two, one, two, three, four.

december 7th, 2010

Yesterday I got a letter mailed after the letter I got today... and the letter today, was absolutely the sweetest.

he wrote this: "Whenever I hear or think your name I see a cute little girl who will dance in the street and not care who is watching. I think of someone who has a huge heart, smart mouth, tender touch and sweet kiss. So you are amazing. I am so glad we found each other and we can make each other smile. I miss you, can't wait to talk to you again, or chat with you, something. Next time I see you we will have the longest hug ever. I miss you and really wanna be with you. xxxooo's"

He's everything to me <3

My boyfriend, my soldier, my hero

I am very happy with my life, with most aspects. I have two amazingly beautiful kids, who make every single day an adventure. I am living in upstate New York (during my "deployment") and while my family is great, I'm already anxious to move away, closer to my Hero.

I have an amazing man in my life who is everything I've always wanted in a man. He's funny, brilliant (working on his Masters degree), strong, honorable, charming, kind, generous, caring, handsome, adorable, sweet and romantic. He makes every single day during this deployment easier by letting me know he misses me in little ways and sometimes, not so little ways. He sends me flowers (first, when I was moving from Canada and second, for my birthday), gets me little gifts (for my birthday, he sent me an amazing harddrive that I wanted; a teddy bear with his Engineering symbol on it; and most recently a care package from Afghanistan that had a few shirts, one that said Real Soldier on it, and his PT shirt which smells like him, another teddy bear, stoneware and something that fits my personality). He also supports and encourages every single thing I do. Whenever I have a problem, he wants to help me solve it and doesn't think that I'm over reacting, or if he does, he never says so, he simply says that he's there for me, that I'm strong and I can handle it. He is also so supportive over my plans to start online classes in January.

I am switching apartments in the next few days and I'm so glad to do it. There's way too much drama living in this place, since my mother's boyfriend is my landlord, so switching is the best way to ease that up in my life. I have applied for scholarships and grants for school and am pretty sure that I'm starting in January. It's the perfect plan. I'm so excited and to have someone who cares about me so much, supporting my every move. I am head over heals for Steve, my Captain. He's my number one fan and I'm his. We're perfect for each other and I'll never get over him. <3 He's my everything.

Lily and Jax are getting big. Jax is so tall and really not fat as much as he is just bigger. Whenever we go out, people ask if they are twins and can hardly believe that Jax is the youngest of them. It's really sweet and cute actually. I am absolutely crazy about my Babies and will never give them up for the world. They are my angels. <3

So r&r is less than a month and a half away... I'm so excited to see him again. We have plans to do some things together outside but I have a feeling most of our days will be spent curled up next to each other, hearing his heart beat, smelling him, feeling his arms wrapped around me. Getting new pictures... saying three little words that both of us don't want to say over the phone or online.

We have a skype date later <3

He's my absolute Hero <3

the military brat ... :)

• Actually like the clothes at the PX and don't mind that 100 other people are wearing the same thing.
• All your former very best friends are as long gone as your last move.
• Always wish you were back at the last place you were stationed even 20 years later.
• Answer the question "where are you from" with "I'm kinda from all over the place"
• Are able to imitate others speech patterns easily
• Are amazed at people who have lived somewhere more than three years.
• Are amazed at people who have never left their hometown.
• Are amazed at people who have never seen foreign currency.
• Are amazed at people who think Frankfurt is a some kind of hotdog.
• Are asked "where did you learn to speak English so well"
• Are asked is it hard always moving around when you don't know anything else.
• Are brought to tears by military music.
• Are going to a grocery store but call it a commissary.
• Are initially confused when asked where are you from but quickly respond "everywhere!"
• At 22 you are trying to find someone in the military to marry so you can get a new ID card.
• Avoid visiting the doctor because you don't trust civilian hospitals.
• Bagged groceries at the commissary on payday.
• Can ask for a beer in most European languages.
• Can bounce a quarter off your bedsheets and have hospital corners on your bed.
• Can call up actual memories of a country while you're in Geography class.
• Can identify ranks and duty station by the stickers on the car's bumper.
• Can not speak the language of the country in which you were born.
• Can recite all the AFRTS commercials along with the elevision.
• Can remember ordering a Big Mac, fries, and beer.
• Can still convert foreign currency in your head.
• Can talk to anyone and everyone from anywhere and everywhere.
• Can't drink Budweiser without being coerced.
• Do not understand why many of your friends are afraid to be in an airplane.
• Don't feel quite right seeing military personnel younger than you.
• Don't really know how to answer the question "what is your hometown."
• Don't remember the names of your childhood friends.
• Draw a quick map of the world to show someone where you last lived.
• Ever got sick eating chocolate field rations.
• Every room you've ever had was stark white and you couldn't put nail holes in the walls
• Everyone complains about your name being the most scratched out in their address book.
• Everywhere you go you think you see someone you went yo school with.
• Expect someone else to do your housework but can't afford it.
• Feared turning 21 because they would take your id card away.
• Feel like you should be visiting the states rather than living in them.
• Feel more at home on a military base than in town even though you've been a civilian for 26 years
• Feel more comfortable living near a military base and get bummed out when a base gets closed.
• Felt like a part of history that was happening around you.
• Find that you can easily amuse yourself for hours at airports, train or bus stations.
• Graduated from a high school you only attended for a year.
• Had Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners in a mess hall.
• Have a very best lifelong friend who you have known for less than a few years.
• Have been asked just where in NY is APO.
• Have to explain that being born in Germany does not make you a German.
• Have forgotten how to speak more languages than most people ever learn.
• Have USAA as your insurance company.
• Know exactly how horrible AFN commercials are.
• Knew the rank and name of the kid next door's father before meeting the kid next door.
• Know kilometers better than miles and Celsius better than Fahrenheit.
• Know that Radio Luxembourg was the number one way to keep up with the latest rock and roll hits.
• Know the words and tune to military march songs.
• Know what "the land of the big PX is."
• Know what the "land of the round door knob is."
• Left school frequently for bomb scares.
• Listened to Armed Forces and VOA radio for the 1st 10 years of your life.
• Miss shopping at AAFES or the PX.
• Most of your Scout camping equipment had US instead of BSA stamped on it.
• Munched on hot brotchen and gummies on the way to school.
• Name schools in three countries on two continents when asked what high school you attended.
• Never quite finished decorating your place because you knew you'd be moving soon.
• Notice Tom Cruise in uniform, outside with no hat and having a non-regulation haircut in Top Gun.
• Panic when you can't find you ID or passport.
• Put your hand over your heart at 5 p.m. knowing the flag was coming own ...somewhere.
• Realize that the latest fashion in the states is not the same clothes you bought on base.
• Remember being able to watch the Super Bowl or World Series live on TV at 2 a.m.
• Stand up for the National Anthem at the start of a movie in a theater.
• Thought all pens had "US Government" printed on them.
• Thought that the quartermaster was the real Santa Claus.
• Thought vacations meant going stateside to visit the grandparents.
• Try to take out your ID card when you enter a grocery store.
• Went into hysterics when your grandparents thought of selling their house.
• Wonder if dad signed a hand receipt when you were born.
• You are confused when you fiancee talks about watching trees grow large in front of the house.
• You went on week-long field trips to England, France and Italy.
• You'd been to every Gasthaus in Germany before you were 18.
• Your ssn, home of record, state of residence, and place of birth are far from matching.
• Know PCS meant pack your toys and say see ya later

please....