"Leah, Leah, Leah, my dear sweet Leah, how does your garden grow?"

My true love has my heart, and I have his. Together in marriage, together at heart. In good times and hard. In sickness and in health. For now and forever.


Saturday, February 13, 2010

lonely thoughts

I feel the darkness closing in around me, sweeping up so suddenly within me,
drowining me in this grey cloud of agony and pain, questions without answers.
I fight for every breath, I can feel this disease crawling inside my skin.
I want it to be over, I am growing colder, I know somethings got to end.
I can’t give up, I can’t give in.
I can’t let it kill me, this enemy from within.
I’ll fight til the end.
It’s not enough, this life, it never is.
I’ve lost my way, I feel trapped inside a cage with no lock and no key.
I try to find the faceless enemy inside me but something’s getting in the way.
This isn’t how it should be.
This rotten core inside, I’ve had enough.
With every breath I take, I fight, this torment is killing me.
I need some peace of mind, when all is said and done, and leave my fears behind.
I look into my reflection, my bloodshot eyes from tears I’ve cried, stare back into me.
There’s always something going wrong, can anyone help me make things better?
The dreams left inside me are slowly fading and the emptiness is quickly growing.
The love that might have existed has crashed around me.
Already orphaned by Fate, the wretchedness seeps in to make itself at home.
With every step I take, I struggle against this Silent Killer inside my hide.
Caught in the eye of the storm, I must fight either way.
With one last breath, I defy this til the end.