lovely wish

These words come from deep within me,
Confessing my heart's most sacred truth
Inside I feel the ocean, so deep and mysterious
With undercurrents of emotions never truly revealed
Ever since you entered my world,
I feel my heart speed up endlessly
This is such a terrifying dream, a beautiful adventure
A lovely wish whispered into my ear with a sigh
I must confess, this I did not expect.
I couldn't have believed, only in my dreams
Just you and me together, holding your hand
Feels like the world is empty, we're the last one's left
All is quiet and abandoned, but for us right here
I can hear a pin drop and the beating of our hearts
Each breath we take makes thunderous sounds
You are here with me and I think it's good
I want to say something, but you're my only fear
Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear it's not a lie.
I don't need a hero, I'm not looking to be saved.
This is just my silent plee, my demanding secret hunger
Tell me the words I'm starved to hear
the ones that speak of your truest desire
Let your words be the music and dance with me
Just hold me, move me, spin me, free me
Confess your heart of hearts and share your dreams
This sun is so blinding, eternally shining
And here we stand, side by side,
As I patiently wait for
A lovely wish whispered into my ear with a sigh.

I am so compelled by you

You have to be the smartest man I've met so far. And you have to be the most understanding, caring, compassionate man I've ever known. How is it I found you without really looking. I'm crazy about you... I can't wait until we learn more about each other and hopefully, we'll fall madly, completely, insanely in love with each other.

Yes, to anything...

I've never been so sure of anything. It's like, I've finally come to understand the difference between dread and fear, and those nervous butterflies that everyone keeps talking about. You want to know how I know? Because when I'm with you, I feel those butterflies fluttering around inside of me. But they don't make me want to run the other direction, like the fear has done before. If anything, they make me want to press myself as close as I can to you- skin to skin, heartbeat to heartbeat, because when I do that, the butterflies quiet their wings for a bit and they let me feel you. Feel all of you. And it's in those moments that I realize that the fear I feel is only surface level. It's the kind of fear you feel right before you turn on a bright light after hours of being in the dark- just a few seconds before you open your eyes to see something so beautiful, something you couldn't see before. For the first time in my life, I don't want to run away. I want to be with you, I want all of you. And I'm going to miss you. A year is a very long time but I'm ready. I am ready to fall in love with you. 

I really sort of maybe kinda like you

It's been amazing. Don't leave.

here he comes

I'm about to pick him up from the air port. OMG!!! I'm so nervous. I hope he's everything I've dreamed of. And I hope I'm everything he's been hoping for.

Happy Independence Day 2010

You did. I used to be different. Braver, smarter, funnier. I used to be different. Sadder. Angrier. Bitter. I had my heart broken and then you listened to my heart, you listened to my dreams and all my endless ramblings. I'm kinda thinking there might be something here. I can't wait to meet you for real.